Mothering and mental resilience

The depth of my work is intertwined with my life experiences.  

As someone who has been taking on a long journey and someone who has experienced something deeply life changing such as a mental break down that brought me back to basics when my youngest child was 1 year old.I had to relearn how to cope with day to day activities. Some of my memories now seem distant and at times they no longer feel like my own.  This is what healing can do, and also how resilience brings us forward.  

Ocassionally, I would feel intrusive thoughts and I am grateful for all the tools I have to support my mental wellbeing as well as the ways I have learnt to love myself deeper and in more meaningful ways since recovering 4 years ago.  The process was long, it was hard, it had many ups and downs.  It was scary, it was needed, it was what it was.  But it is above all, a cycle that I will end, for me and my children.  Rest is now a priority, my boundaries and self-care are imperative.  

There are several things about my journey that made my recovery a slow process, among one important aspect is that I am a mother to three children.  Three mighty neurodivergent children, and supporting them while supporting myself has also made me re-evaluate different aspects of my life that needed to change, and that are continually evolving to allow for my wellbeing.  

When we talk about motherhood or physical and mental states, most people prefer to know / to hear about the positive stories, the happier ones.  People are uncomfortable with divergent behaviors and feelings.  I open my life and my world to the wholeness of my motherhood experience as well as that of my mental health challenges.